Everyday I must suffer

I'm sick and tired.

No I don't really want to blame anyone. It's just my own state of self.

My legs are aching. I skipped work today because I'm drained of that crappy china-standard job. I miss jogging at the jetty. I miss my exercise routine.

I had enough of that fat bitch at work.

And I've got to admit, jaded being the 'good' guy. Strangers don't really give me respect. They say nice guys finish last.

Maybe I'll be and act like a real drop-out.

Here's my last words to you, [your name here]. STAY IN SCHOOL, PUNK!!

A tale of crap

The Jester fancies the lady Princess
As they both loved the same poetries
And so the lad asked her for a Saturday
But evermost beautiful Milady had her royal upcomings

Dubious thoughts came to mind
The lowhearted jester sighed
Maybe he isn’t like Milady’s brother
A higher knight, alike other charming princes

Smiling away, a kingdom exile he is
The lonesome Jester returns to The Path
As said by His Infernal Majesty
Written on the parchment of Love Metal

Well after all, he is a joke.

Dirge for self-contribution

When I'm dreaming of someone, I can't sleep. When I'm not thinking of anyone, I can't sleep too. Can anyone find me my Angel of sleep? Angel of death is standing beside me all the time.

I just got a myspace. They say it's a great place for music. I'll die for music.

So, what's up with me and low-paying jobs? Well, it'll be a few more weeks and I'll go through my life-changing point that is national service.

Enslaved

My electric guitar? I bought it with my own money, working whilst waiting for my 'O' Level results. The harsh conditions at causeway point burger king hell. The chinese boss was damn self-righteous, in other words, fucked up. And I was the scapegoat kid. All the aunties there accused me of thief. I survived 7 months.

Guitar lesson books that I bought? I'm quite a self-taught. Unlike some newbies who pray a 'Slash' or 'Malmsteen' will drop from the sky and give them free ultimate lessons. Free lessons? Free lessons? Free lessons??

Economical 50 bucks guitar pedals? Yeah it's not Boss or Metalzone but at least I don't borrow from friends like freeloaders.

Lap-top? Bought it half-paid with the aid of my mum. I'm still paying to her every month. And I remember repairing it once. 200 plus with my own pocket money, inclusive of all last year's hari raya collections gone.

Metal disc collections? Every month I'll buy one for the sake of supporting. But very common I'll skip them due to other more important spendings.

My newly bought Ibanez acoustic guitar? I just bought it last week. All the sweat that I drained in the Pizza Hut kitchen. Cycling back and forth to work every day and late nights. My legs are growing numb.

So, am I a freeloader? I think I've sacrificed an amount of my soul and heartwork.

The shield burns

Nothing else to do on a dull Sunday, hence I support these guys. Great job shieldburners! Maybe very minor cock ups but better than most of the bands at Ultrasound.

Lots of mediocrecy seen yesterday from some bands.

But maybe it's the type of gig. Just decent bunch of youngsters expressing their love for music, despite untuned guitars, immature double-pedals, powerchords strong enough to blow away flies, mosquitos and bacteria present in the air. Wow. I feel like turning into Simon Cowell.

Back to sleep. Still experiencing stomach-ache, knee-ache, tired eyes, heartsickness, ravenbleakness...

I.F.H.AMMO Ver 9.0

So why do people listen to aggressive music? You don't get it?

We're not angry people. We're furious. Deep in the heart in which we kept for so long. Like a black dragon wanting to break free out of his hellish prison lair.

We're not barbarians. If fact we are trying to stay alive. And stay human. Something just needs to tame and play with the bloodthirsty tigerheart.

So why aren't you at the same page with us? Could be because you don't have a boss who fucks you up everyday at work.

Maybe you had, but you quit the job on the second day. Running away instead of enduring the shit.

IYAN'S 5 HEADBANGER AMMOS



Immortal - Suns that sank below
Year: 1997
Origin: Norway
Genre: Black metal
Minors: Brutal black metal, death metal


The first two black metal band words that came from my mouth as a baby is Cradle of Filth and Dimmu Borgir. Then, Immortal. Haha.

A brutal rage indeed. Sounds like an earthquake, avalanche, ice storm, tsunami, Baghdad bombings, hurricane Katrina coming all at you at once.

Some 4 years ago when I first listened to this, I couldn’t even hear what chords they're playing. Too fast!! Insane tremolo speed picking (be warned, Demonaz the (former) guitarist suffered acute tendinopathy, after Blizzard Beasts album. Don’t try to cover this song at home!). Maximum shock value!

Headbanger's meter: Extreme

Hypocrisy - Fire in the sky
Year: 2000
Origin: Sweden
Genre: Melodic death metal
Minors: Doom death, gothic death, gothic black


First true death metal song I heard to. Or doom death. Hmm… black metal vocals?

And probably the only song I like from Hypocrisy. And ever heard. Haha.

If you listen closely to the guitars, there's melody there. Thick, heavy, downheartful ones. A song almost sounding gothic metal, if they had their synth played louder throughout. Well it is. Maybe. Nevertheless has quite an epic feel.

If you want an evil; sinister, but unrushed (not too doomy) metal song with harsh vocals, take this song along.

Headbanger's meter: High to very high

Slayer - Angel of death
Year: 1986
Origin: America
Genre: Thrash metal
Minors: Extreme thrash, proto-death


Ah, my first small steps to knowing 'true extreme metalism'. A Slayer song that kicked me in the balls… hard!! First hearing to this, I realized Number of the Beast by Iron Maiden isn't really satanic at all!

I think the vocalist is kicked in balls too, at the beginning if the song. Trying to reach the heights of a power metal vocalist? Okay, whatever it is I don’t need to describe them thrash overlords. Everyone quite knows their music style.

"They took Venom along and went straight to hell!"

Headbanger's meter: Very high

Einherjer - Dead Knight's Rite
Year: 2004
Origin: Norway
Genre: Viking metal
Minors: Neo-black metal, groove black metal, progressive metal


The first Viking metal song I tuned to, if I could ever remember.

The staccato power-riff is very gripping and hard to ignore! High treble kick drums, groovy; jazzy upbeats. Arrr!! Piratey grim death vocals. Epic seafaring-driven synths. Guitar lick melodies imported directly from Valhalla hard rock cafe. I mean, hall. Not forgetting the very fine sound quality from the Blot album.

This is incredibly unique, quirky and memorable metal tune. You can actually dance to it!! There's no Einherjer like Einherjer. Too bad they're disbanded.

Enter viking/folk metal!!

Headbanger's meter: Very high

Slipknot - Spit it out
Year: 1999
Origin: America
Genre: Nu-metal
Minors: Extreme nu-metal, rapcore, death-rapcore


The first 'death metal' song I ever heard. Some 8 years ago. I know what you metal purists are thinking…

Upon first hearing, I was scared to death of course! And at that time Linkin Park is already very, very 'heavy'. Never I heard such music so downtuned on guitars. Drop-B that is.

Yeah it’s not 'real' metal as said by extreme metal extremists. But it’s a jump starter to the 'real' death metal for angsty suburban kids who now/later listens to Deicide, Behemoth, 1349, Naglfar, Nile, bla, bla, bla. Some songs by Vader sound like Slipknot anyway. I think.

Headbanger's meter: Very high