weird day part 3

after that conversion with umi & kakak.. I have so many thoughts going thru my head.

Of course I like my best friend. If I were to marry her one day that's really great. But I just think I'm still young and just starting out my first career.

My friend once told me, "aku tau kau suke single, tapi sampai bile kau nak jadi single?"

And then so many qoutes come into my head. One of them is "Don't be with someone you can live with, be with someone you can't live without."

Hmm.. I wonder. At some point of time I think I can't live without my bestie. Because I we shared with each other so many experiences and stories.

Stories of dates, me with other girls, she with other boys. And every girl I come across I shared with her. Especially the girls at work..

I can't live without her because when I'm with her, I can totally be myself. I always have her to share my ups & downs..

But us being just best friends is the best..

But wait..

I need to ask myself this. What if nurul ain fall in love with someone new? Will I regret? Regret that I have lost such a beautiful girl to someone else??

Oh shit. Of course I will regret. And I will feel stupid. I like her more than any other girls and I just let her go to someone else..

I will feel stupid. Because a girl I really like was right in front of me all the while. Umi was right. "da suke jangan diam-diam aje."

Let me rephrase the feeling in Malay. "KAN BODOH!! PROMPAN TU SINGLE, KAU DAH ADE HATI KAT DIE.. IN THE END LAKI LAIN KEBAS."

"KAU TAK ABIS-ABIS PIKIR NAK SINGLE. REZEKI DA KAT DEPAN MATA. KAU DA SUKE DIE.. KAU NAK BUAT BODO JE?"

hahahah. sounds brutal.

Dear nurul ain. If you read part 1-3 (and maybe fall asleep). this is why I called you yesterday. Sorry it took me so long for me to realise that..

.. I love you more than just a friend.

weird day part 2

when I showed umi that pic, I also smiled and giggled. cheeky aku ni. haha. then umi ask me again another series of questions.

Umi: abang takde suke kat die? kalau suke kat die kene bilang tau. kalau nak serious ngan die kene bilang tau.

Me: alahh. maseh siang la umi. abang nak single aje. kawan-kawan aje.

Umi: tak salah. dulu abah kahwin umi, abah umur 22.

Me: itu zaman dulu umi.. sekarang zaman lain.

Umi: kalau da suke, jangan tunggu lama-lama.

Me: merepek la umi. umi, kalau da ade matair atau da kahwin.. pegi holiday maner gerek macam  bile single?

Umi: tak salah. Pegi holiday dengan isteri atau matair kan lagi best.

Me: err.. yelah, yelah.

Umi: abang. kalau da kahwin pahala banyak tau. pahala bangunkan rumah tangga.. pahala sayang pade isteri..

Me: ....

when I was with her.. I keep asking myself.. is she one? and I dun tink so.. and I tink know.. maybe its someone.. I dont know.. maybe its too early.. for me & her..

a comma changes everything

when I texted you

"I don't think, I love you."

It actually means that I don't hesitate or think twice to love you. I hope you noticed that small little comma..

ainboosyuk & suffy. bff

dream abt latino gal again.

Ainlatinoboosyuk

I dreamt that I went out with nurul ain in almost matching-colours baju kurung. we went to the neighbourhood shops to buy stuff. We went to buy slippers at this shop but the service seriously sucks!! I didn't get my shoe size. And the uncle like want to KENA SMACK.

takes time to gain trust..

#my3littleangels

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 0:06 AM on Wed, Dec 26, 2012:

"i dream of you and all the things you said.. I wonder where you are now."

ah lian gf

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 7:12 AM on Tue, Dec 25, 2012:
there she goes again.. her over-active mind. full of angst. she has so much more to learn and mature. have a great day my friend.

My heart is often stolen

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 11:39 PM on Mon, Dec 24, 2012:
"My heart is often stolen, but I always found it back because I love myself more than anything else." ceyybah. I just made something up.

prc gf....

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 11:31 PM on Mon, Dec 24, 2012:
not 1, but 2 butch going after my prc gf. sometimes people dun realise that the way that they behave & interact brings 'hope' to others.

in shaa Allah

glad bestie finally applied for the job. wish her all the very best. from the point of awaiting reply till the several subsequent interviews.

you come in and out of my life

marriage is better than BGR because there's no feeling of "you come in and out of my life" or "on and off". everyday get to see each other at home mah.

#imperfections

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 5:18 PM on Sat, Dec 22, 2012:

if u are willing to love somebody, of course u are willing to love him/her the way he/she is, & forgive his/her past. #imperfections

emotionally dependent

sometimes I agree that love is an illusion. that delusional feeling that your heart belongs only to him/her, nobody else; hence you can't live by yourself. #emotionallydependent #justsayin

#badhabits

(@AyeshaLucarelli) tweeted at 6:14 PM on Wed, Dec 19, 2012: Bad habits are like a comfortable bed, easy to get into, but hard to get out of. #AnonQuote

the 3g age

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 10:45 PM on Wed, Dec 19, 2012:
a bad time to be texting/watsapping on the hp.. is when you're meeting up with gd old frens.. isn't the point of meeting up is to catch up with each other? #badhabits #justsayin

#dailyroutine

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 9:48 AM on Wed, Dec 19, 2012:
charge hp, went to sleep. wakes up, hp batt 100%. check fb & twitter, until batt left 84%, put hp aside, gets off from bed.

manly

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 10:40 AM on Tue, Dec 18, 2012:
I feel so manly because I just killed a big hornet flying in my house (in the process, I did jumped around and screamed like a girl).

I guess I can't be friends with everyone that I work with.

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 11:13 PM on Mon, Dec 17, 2012:
I will never talk to you again. I will never talk about you again. You attitude problem butch. Pls la. Sampai bile kau nk sombong kat aku?
grow up!!! merajuk takkan sampai setahun?

fcuk up day

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 4:11 PM on Mon, Dec 17, 2012:
fcuked up first few hrs kat werk. first counter got fcuked up PR driver. then at canteen ask soleha a simple qn she gave me the fcuk up look
.. luckily werk for 2 hrs only because of RT. I feel so down.

#random

what if 'kambing' is an english word which means 'maybe'? then the song will become "..so here's my number, so call me kambing."

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we are single;

occasionally we wonder if the one person whom we'll end up with.. is someone who we already know, or is someone who we have yet to meet.

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2 gals + 1 guy

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 5:11 PM on Tue, Dec 11, 2012:
2 gals + 1 guy = they both mengumpat and the guy gets bored, texts a gal. hahahah btul tak @MzZyunHan

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RT @SantapanMinda

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 7:48 PM on Mon, Dec 10, 2012:
"@SantapanMinda: Kawan yang baik tidak akan membiarkan kita terus melakukan kesalahan. terimalah teguran dengan hati terbuka."

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sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 1:17 PM on Mon, Dec 10, 2012

lepas cuci pond umi nak masak pulak. my mum the wonderwoman :\

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afternoon shift. klua rumah kul 12.45

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 0:29 PM on Sun, Dec 09, 2012:
afternoon shift. klua rumah kul 12.45 + take over driver side = tak sempat solat zuhur.

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luckily today jamming cancelled

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 8:40 PM on Fri, Dec 07, 2012:
luckily today jamming cancelled!! If not cannot meet up with PRC gf. Lol

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sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 11:44 AM on Fri, Dec 07, 2012

dun be a flower, be a player.

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mandarin station names

"@mrbrown: SMRT's Mandarin station names useful for the elderly http://t.co/arEJoTRJ Don't bluff. The elderly has been taking MRT in English since 1987"

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ur dad director?

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 8:54 AM on Thu, Dec 06, 2012:

if ur dad is a director of some big company, I'll think 10 times before I try to make u my other half. #parents have expectations u noe.

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disturbed

sufiyan bloodvein (@sufiyanblodvein) tweeted at 4:48 PM on Sun, Dec 02, 2012:

I disturbed by guys younger than my age getting married soon. kalau kahwin mude tapi masih nak mengatal, step single. wat the hell bro.

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@TheFactsBook

(@TheFactsBook) tweeted at 2:30 PM on Sun, Dec 02, 2012:

Scientists suggest that the average person will fall in love seven times before they get married.

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@sufiyanblodvein

is single and enjoys having low-key relationships; not seriously dating anyone.

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RT @SantapanMinda

1. Apabila seseorang tak dapat melihat kesalahan dalam dirinya maka ia akan terus melihat kesalahan dalam diri orang lain. 
2.  Apabila manusia gagal mencintai Tuhannya, maka cinta sejati tidak akan ditemuinya.

my ideal life partner is someone who reminds me of my mum

my mum loves swimming and snorkeling. during family snorkeling trips to redang & tioman, my mum is always the last to get onto the boat. she can swim & snorkel for hours and hours. maybe in my dad's mind, he is saying "okay, u snorkeling lah sampai besok pagi.."

holiday 2013?

dis yr & last yr went holiday with my guys frens. maybe next yr its time I go holiday with my family. the last time went as a family is 2010.

some of the reasons i'm not into much younger gals

is that they are hard to be grateful & inconstantly changing their mind. always thinking if they deserve a better guy than they currently have now.

RT @KattWillliams

Lowkey relationship are always the best. No one needs to know anything.