just turned 24!! four days ago.
tomorrow is morning shift. but i can't seem to sleep. maybe i should blog something. my birthday wishes, as i go old.
i want my retired parents to age gracefully & happily. i really want them to be around to see my children grow. to see me get married too. haha
i want to quickly pass my bike license and shift all my stuff to kempas house. having my own transport will be very convenient.
and my room will become my nephew's room. he will turn 6 months old soon.. i need to move out and give more space to my sister's family :))
should i wish to find love? well, if i'm in love, i'll try my very best to love her unconditionally.
but sometimes i question myself am i really ready? am i really strong enough to face all the consequences? the bitter and pain?
am i really in love with someone? or am i just lonely. spending time with someone just as a 'hobby'? am i confused between friendship and love?
sometimes love makes us a bitch, don't you think?
when we love someone, is it normal for us to have a certain expectation. for us to expect something in return.
when we don't get something from him/her we will get disappointed. we became a sore loser.
we bitch about him/her. we tell our friends how unfair he/she is treating us. our minds become disturbed. we can't focus on work and performance.
we will even compare him/her with other people. and then we will ask ourselves "is he/she really the one for me?"
if only i could find a gal who really reminds me of my mum. very loving, hardworking, disciplined and so much more to describe her..
she understands and takes care of my dad really, really well. she worked too hard for me & my sisters to survive in this island called Singapore.
she has been working since 14 yrs old. she dropped out of secondary school. my mum may not be very clever, but she is very tough and independent.
when i am still schooling, mum went for religious classes, foot reflexology and body massage classes, also tried direct-selling while working at seagate.
dear God, please give the best in life & the afterlife for both of my parents. forgive all their sins big or small. for without them, i will not be here.
dear God, please give me the patience to endure the hard days in life, give me strength to support myself & my parents. i'm just a simple human being.