weird day part 3

after that conversion with umi & kakak.. I have so many thoughts going thru my head.

Of course I like my best friend. If I were to marry her one day that's really great. But I just think I'm still young and just starting out my first career.

My friend once told me, "aku tau kau suke single, tapi sampai bile kau nak jadi single?"

And then so many qoutes come into my head. One of them is "Don't be with someone you can live with, be with someone you can't live without."

Hmm.. I wonder. At some point of time I think I can't live without my bestie. Because I we shared with each other so many experiences and stories.

Stories of dates, me with other girls, she with other boys. And every girl I come across I shared with her. Especially the girls at work..

I can't live without her because when I'm with her, I can totally be myself. I always have her to share my ups & downs..

But us being just best friends is the best..

But wait..

I need to ask myself this. What if nurul ain fall in love with someone new? Will I regret? Regret that I have lost such a beautiful girl to someone else??

Oh shit. Of course I will regret. And I will feel stupid. I like her more than any other girls and I just let her go to someone else..

I will feel stupid. Because a girl I really like was right in front of me all the while. Umi was right. "da suke jangan diam-diam aje."

Let me rephrase the feeling in Malay. "KAN BODOH!! PROMPAN TU SINGLE, KAU DAH ADE HATI KAT DIE.. IN THE END LAKI LAIN KEBAS."

"KAU TAK ABIS-ABIS PIKIR NAK SINGLE. REZEKI DA KAT DEPAN MATA. KAU DA SUKE DIE.. KAU NAK BUAT BODO JE?"

hahahah. sounds brutal.

Dear nurul ain. If you read part 1-3 (and maybe fall asleep). this is why I called you yesterday. Sorry it took me so long for me to realise that..

.. I love you more than just a friend.