Got music. No girlfriend.

This could be an 'emo' post. But I hate that word, like Marduk hates Jesus Christ. Yes, the word 'emo' is too trendy. And to be in relationships too. Maybe. What can I say. I'm your no.1 Trendwhore-Blasphemer, baby.

Well, I'm 18. Turning 19 soon. Still no serious relationships. And countlessly people thought I had or have one. Nah. And I know that my sisters are more experienced than me. The total number of ex's they have is equal to the number of metal t-shirts I own.

So, what is relationships for us young adults? Displaying a picture of you with him/her at your primary photo at friendster profile? Kissing in public? One night stands? Someone to cry to (because you're a big baby right now and too embarrassed to cry to your own mom)?

And what is love? It's a matter of experience over time to fully understand the meaning. Actually I'm more interested to answer "where is the love?"

The love to our mother Earth which is dying. The love to your REAL mother as a 24/7 worker-housewife but left unappreciated. The love and bonding of a full-circle family eating together at the dinner table. The love to your academic studies, which your dad spent thousands on it.

And the love we always fail to look in, the equal love between mankind. Between same flesh and blood. Between brothers and siblings. We are one. Nemesis.

I like being around with girlfriends. A stronger warmth in the soul (not all girls though). Felt so much better than being around with guy friends. Common sense. Ah.

"With a lady by his side, his potential is infinity." I still love you emak!

New: Metallic educational video I made at youtube. Also, I bought an IN FLAMES(OLD) logo t-shirt!! I very excite!!