The Darkest Future

Listening: Korn - Hollow Life

Darker days ahead, I never felt this way before. The darkest days of my lives.

influenced by "..my dark life." Idris

Take a step into my neurotic-disordered minds... now..



You thought you are innocent..
..but you still do the sinful things inside the closet..

You wished you changed your school because your grades are falling down hard..
..but you still kept quiet.

You wished & thought your parents would ban you from your music..
..but they still give you the freedom.

You wished & thought your parents would stop giving you pocket money and told you to work..
..but they carried on giving you four bucks a day, and you are thankful.

You wished you were more perfect and attractive-looking to their eyes..
..but all this while, you have your five senses still working and you're not disabled or handicapped.

You wished for a better life..
..but all this while, you failed to realize you have a home, a perfect family, education aided by your parents, having pocket money everyday, your own room, your own pc..

You awaited for a sweet beautiful angel to fall from the sky..
..but all this while, God's guardian angels are always with you, on the left & right shoulder.

You wished things with her could have been better..
..but you never expressed the absolute true feelings to her.

You wished you'll never be an emo kid..
..but all you're writing now is so emo.

You wished that someone would read this post and give you sympathy..
..but all this while, it's up to you and only you to find yourself again...



Now how do you feel? Uneasy? You have just been in my own shoes, my friend.